Primarily, I am writing this blog for those people who I know will welcome having a place where they can come and think about Julia. And, of course, I am also writing it for me. As life gets busier, and Lily gets older, these things seem to take their toll on the amount of time that I spend just thinking of Julia. She is always in my heart, and every interaction I have with my world, I believe, is influenced by her in some way. But too often I feel that too much time has gone by without me really thinking about her. I hope that this site will enable or encourage me to take a little more time a little more often, to sit down and think about Julia.
It's taken me so long to start this, partly, because it did not seem like a "normal" thing to blog about. But, as Bert pointed out to me, really nothing about our life since Julia's death seems "normal". I thought that was a good point. I don't really know what this will become, how frequently I will post or what I will write about. But I do know that writing about Julia, and about life, always makes me feel more connected to myself and to my girl. And I know that I am happy to once again have a space to think, write and share about my daughter, and a space where others can do the same. There is a phrase that pops into my head when I'm embarking on something new which has unforeseeable results, often at unexpected moments (like questioning whether I should put peaches in my guacamole), and always in a squeaky, exuberant, two-and-a-half-year-old's voice. "We can try!". I guess that says it all.